182.6lbs.
90mg Armour Thyroid X 2 – .30 HCG – 150mg- whole adrenal – 80mg adrenal cortex – 30mg pregnenolone
This morning I will take the adrenal & pregnenolone. I find that I cannot take it every day. It gives me the feeling that I am coming out of my skin. It almost feels like taking an SSRI. Weird.
I also don’t inject the HCG every day. I don’t know why.
Well, more than I could hope for? I am 79 days into HCG, lost 19 pounds and have 41 to go. I keep waiting for work to slow down so I can properly attend to my weight loss. 15 hour work days 7 days a week make me too tired to exercise or focus good energy on dieting.
Blogging is good because you can go back in time and find points.
August 7 2009 08/03/2009 – goal weight – 158.5lbs VS actual – 167lbs 8.5lbs over goal
For the last one, I had to go back to my old blog. My Life As A Fat Woman – riding my way to happiness. I’m too fat and too discouraged to use that blog anymore. That was back when I was an athlete, that was back when I truly believed I could gain control over my weight. That was the summer I bought into the fallacy: calories in vs calories burned equals weight loss. BULLSHIT.
Reading through my old blog depressed me. I feel as though I let myself down. Like I gave up on me. I broke promises to myself and did not accomplish what I set out to do. That’s just plain wrong. My Life As A Fat Woman was supposed to be a joke, a brief period in time where I lost control of my weight but then regained it. I did not know at the time that it would be what my life became.
We are going to the beach tomorrow. I was supposed to weigh 165 pounds by this weekend. I’m 17 pounds over that. But I’m ok. I want to go and have fun. I will pack up my surf board. I will bring my camera. I will bring my kindle and my netbook. I will bring my fire & my poi. I will relax. I will have fun.
I will ask again for comments. As I’ve stated before, the most difficult part about this journey is the overwhelming feeling that I am all alone. Any comments will be greatly appreciated…
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